Purity is what I strive for daily, some days are better than the other. Purity has many definitions. In recent times "purity" has become a staple for parents to teach their children abstinence. There are Purity Dances with fathers and daughters, purity, true love wait, chastity, promise and abstinence rings that have become very popular among teenage girls and boys.
"Purity is the absence of impurity or contaminants in a substance. The absence of vice in human character. The state or degree of being pure." Wikipedia
When I began recovery it was a difficult task to achieve living my life in a pure way. For too many years I had been doing just the opposite, living my life impure. Contaminating my body with drugs and alcohol, lying, cheating, stealing, living and loving selfishly. Impure thoughts, actions, reactions. In active addiction it was my way of life. In every form and fashion I thought I was living a good life and did not realize I was not until I found sobriety and began to live my life in a sober way. There is a difference between "being sober" and "living sober".
Though I have been sober for 7 years, my old ways can easily sneak back into my life. When they do I am more aware and acknowledge to myself and God that I need help fighting off the demons. I turn to God to help me because it was only through him that I was able to put down the bottle. I had to turn my addiction over to a Higher Power, to which I call God.
There certainly have been struggles in the past 7 years, however I know now when I am not living my life in a pure fashion/manner. Every morning I pray to God to continue to embed Purity as my way of life, in everything that I do. Thanking him for the humility that he has also embedded into my soul. Thanking him for the roof over my head, the clean sheets, the hot water, as I have been without those before.
It is easy to get caught up in worldly day to day problems and to complain about matters or instances in our lives. I have and sometimes fall backwards into this pattern of life. Through Recovery I have learned to be grateful for the simple pleasures in life that I once took for granted.
"Purity is not just the way we act, but it is out entire conversation. It is our thoughts, words and deeds that show our true heart's intent". What I strive for daily. God Speed.
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Saturday, March 2, 2013
The Mask from the Masquerade Ball...
you wear in life, may hide you from the world but at the end of the day the mask has to come off for you to sleep at night.
RIGOROUS HONESTY - Daily Reflections
Who wishes to be rigorously honest and tolerant? Who wants to confess his faults to another and make restitution for harm done? Who cares anything about a Higher Power, let alone meditation and prayer? Who wants to sacrifice time and energy in trying to carry A.A. 's message to the next sufferer? No, the average alcoholic, self-centered in the extreme, doesn't care for this prospect—unless he has to do these things in order to stay alive himself.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 24
I used to hide behind a mask in my world when I was not sober; a mask of lies, deceit, resentment, anger and selfishness. Small white lies, then deceit, lies that became bigger to cover up the little ones..oh, to the web we weave as if we were spiders...It became my way of life and I didn't even realize how much it encompassed my every being until I found Recovery and God.
It was a difficult process in the beginning because it was part of my disease, lying and being deceitful, and I would catch myself lying without even realizing I had done it until afterwards. The other day I realized I had embellished a story to make it seem much grander than it actually was. The embellishment didn't make the story better to the other person, it was my disease trying to make surface.
Today I know that I live my life with rigorous honesty. It is not fun to confess a fault to another, but I know I have to because at the end of the day my Higher Power, God, is the only one, besides myself, that knows the way I live my life.
Wearing a mask at the masquerade ball is easy to do and take off when you get home, however at the ball, your life, you are dancing with the devil. I choose not to wear a mask anymore, I choose God and Rigorous Honesty for my ball, my life. Godspeed
RIGOROUS HONESTY - Daily Reflections
Who wishes to be rigorously honest and tolerant? Who wants to confess his faults to another and make restitution for harm done? Who cares anything about a Higher Power, let alone meditation and prayer? Who wants to sacrifice time and energy in trying to carry A.A. 's message to the next sufferer? No, the average alcoholic, self-centered in the extreme, doesn't care for this prospect—unless he has to do these things in order to stay alive himself.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 24
I used to hide behind a mask in my world when I was not sober; a mask of lies, deceit, resentment, anger and selfishness. Small white lies, then deceit, lies that became bigger to cover up the little ones..oh, to the web we weave as if we were spiders...It became my way of life and I didn't even realize how much it encompassed my every being until I found Recovery and God.
It was a difficult process in the beginning because it was part of my disease, lying and being deceitful, and I would catch myself lying without even realizing I had done it until afterwards. The other day I realized I had embellished a story to make it seem much grander than it actually was. The embellishment didn't make the story better to the other person, it was my disease trying to make surface.
Today I know that I live my life with rigorous honesty. It is not fun to confess a fault to another, but I know I have to because at the end of the day my Higher Power, God, is the only one, besides myself, that knows the way I live my life.
Wearing a mask at the masquerade ball is easy to do and take off when you get home, however at the ball, your life, you are dancing with the devil. I choose not to wear a mask anymore, I choose God and Rigorous Honesty for my ball, my life. Godspeed