Purity is what I strive for daily, some days are better than the other. Purity has many definitions. In recent times "purity" has become a staple for parents to teach their children abstinence. There are Purity Dances with fathers and daughters, purity, true love wait, chastity, promise and abstinence rings that have become very popular among teenage girls and boys.
"Purity is the absence of impurity or contaminants in a substance. The absence of vice in human character. The state or degree of being pure." Wikipedia
When I began recovery it was a difficult task to achieve living my life in a pure way. For too many years I had been doing just the opposite, living my life impure. Contaminating my body with drugs and alcohol, lying, cheating, stealing, living and loving selfishly. Impure thoughts, actions, reactions. In active addiction it was my way of life. In every form and fashion I thought I was living a good life and did not realize I was not until I found sobriety and began to live my life in a sober way. There is a difference between "being sober" and "living sober".
Though I have been sober for 7 years, my old ways can easily sneak back into my life. When they do I am more aware and acknowledge to myself and God that I need help fighting off the demons. I turn to God to help me because it was only through him that I was able to put down the bottle. I had to turn my addiction over to a Higher Power, to which I call God.
There certainly have been struggles in the past 7 years, however I know now when I am not living my life in a pure fashion/manner. Every morning I pray to God to continue to embed Purity as my way of life, in everything that I do. Thanking him for the humility that he has also embedded into my soul. Thanking him for the roof over my head, the clean sheets, the hot water, as I have been without those before.
It is easy to get caught up in worldly day to day problems and to complain about matters or instances in our lives. I have and sometimes fall backwards into this pattern of life. Through Recovery I have learned to be grateful for the simple pleasures in life that I once took for granted.
"Purity is not just the way we act, but it is out entire conversation. It is our thoughts, words and deeds that show our true heart's intent". What I strive for daily. God Speed.
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Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Say How Sweet It Is
We don't expect friends to be in perfect health all the time. We know that they will have issues to deal with as they walk along their own paths. We encourage them. We pray for them. But we don't take their issues as our own, and we don't take it personally when they need some time to focus on their own personal growth.
In friendships, one person does not hold all the power. So despite the differences in our lives, we try to relate as equals.
We're tolerant of cycles in our friendships, knowing that at different times, each person has different needs, different experiences to go through. Sometimes there's more time and energy to devote to the friendships. Other times, there's less.
We don't expect our friends to be at our side twenty four hours a day. We have our time together and value that, but then we each go our own way. We don't try to force bonding with friends, or even force the relationship to be a friendship too fast. We let ourselves go through experiences together naturally, knowing that that's how bonding takes place.
I'm not an expert on marital love, but we might have a better chance at finding love if we treated our lover like a friend.
God, help me find the middle ground between unrealistic expectations and no expectations at all. Help me cherish my relationships and not confuse heavy drama with romantic love.
In friendships, one person does not hold all the power. So despite the differences in our lives, we try to relate as equals.
We're tolerant of cycles in our friendships, knowing that at different times, each person has different needs, different experiences to go through. Sometimes there's more time and energy to devote to the friendships. Other times, there's less.
We don't expect our friends to be at our side twenty four hours a day. We have our time together and value that, but then we each go our own way. We don't try to force bonding with friends, or even force the relationship to be a friendship too fast. We let ourselves go through experiences together naturally, knowing that that's how bonding takes place.
I'm not an expert on marital love, but we might have a better chance at finding love if we treated our lover like a friend.
God, help me find the middle ground between unrealistic expectations and no expectations at all. Help me cherish my relationships and not confuse heavy drama with romantic love.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
A New Life
Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous. . . . Life will mean something at last.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 152
Life is better without alcohol. A.A. and the presence of a Higher Power keeps me sober, but the grace of God does even better; it brings service into my life. Contact with the A.A. program teaches me a new and greater understanding of what Alcoholics Anonymous is and what it does, but most importantly, it helps to show me who I am: an alcoholic who needs the constant experience of the Alcoholics Anonymous program so that I may live a life given to me by my Higher Power.
From the book Daily Reflections
When I first found Recovery AA was the key to my sobriety. While my parents taught me from a young age the importance of a relationship with God and church, after moving out of their house I had fallen from that. It was embedded in me and once the fog grew clear I began incorporating God, as my Higher Power, and am now able to take a much broader approach on staying sober. I turn My Will and My Way over to him to lead me in my daily endeavors. If it were not for God and turning my addiction over to him with the help of the program, I would be not the person I am today. He is my strength, my love, my Knight in Shining Armor. Godspeed.