Purity

Purity is what I strive for daily, some days are better than the other. Purity has many definitions. In recent times "purity" has become a staple for parents to teach their children abstinence. There are Purity Dances with fathers and daughters, purity, true love wait, chastity, promise and abstinence rings that have become very popular among teenage girls and boys.

"Purity is the absence of impurity or contaminants in a substance. The absence of vice in human character. The state or degree of being pure." Wikipedia

When I began recovery it was a difficult task to achieve living my life in a pure way. For too many years I had been doing just the opposite, living my life impure. Contaminating my body with drugs and alcohol, lying, cheating, stealing, living and loving selfishly. Impure thoughts, actions, reactions. In active addiction it was my way of life. In every form and fashion I thought I was living a good life and did not realize I was not until I found sobriety and began to live my life in a sober way. There is a difference between "being sober" and "living sober".

Though I have been sober for 7 years, my old ways can easily sneak back into my life. When they do I am more aware and acknowledge to myself and God that I need help fighting off the demons. I turn to God to help me because it was only through him that I was able to put down the bottle. I had to turn my addiction over to a Higher Power, to which I call God.

There certainly have been struggles in the past 7 years, however I know now when I am not living my life in a pure fashion/manner. Every morning I pray to God to continue to embed Purity as my way of life, in everything that I do. Thanking him for the humility that he has also embedded into my soul. Thanking him for the roof over my head, the clean sheets, the hot water, as I have been without those before.

It is easy to get caught up in worldly day to day problems and to complain about matters or instances in our lives. I have and sometimes fall backwards into this pattern of life. Through Recovery I have learned to be grateful for the simple pleasures in life that I once took for granted.

"Purity is not just the way we act, but it is out entire conversation. It is our thoughts, words and deeds that show our true heart's intent". What I strive for daily. God Speed.