Humility

A true evaluation of conditions as they are; willingness to face facts; recognition of our alcoholic status; freedom from false pride and arrogance; understanding of the proper relationship between ourselves and a Higher Power, between ourselves and fellow human beings; acceptance and practice of this relationship throughout every twenty-four-hour period. Alcoholics Anonymous

I have found in life that I did not understand the true meaning of humility until I began my recovery process. I didn't even understand the definition. Sometimes I still have to re-read it to comprehend it.

Humble -
1. not proud or haughty. not arrogant or assertive
2. reflecting, expressing or offered in a spirit of deference or submission i.e. a humble apology
3. ranking low in hierarchy or scale; not costly or luxurious

Today I had a moment of not showing humility and actually taking the lower road, as in I took a "jab" at someone directly because I knew it would hurt them and I knew it would "eat" at them. A jab I should not have done. One for the obvious reason of not practicing Humility and secondly showing a side of myself that was supposed to be in recovery. What was I doing? An eye for an eye. You hurt me I know where to hurt worse.

Immaturity. No one is perfect, but knowing what is right from wrong in my life today, I knew I had lowered my level to the level this person was acting like. And to kill my mistake, that person apologized first.

I should not have partaken in the pettiness of child like acts. I acted out of character. Before My words could rape you. I have a tongue from hell and unfortunately showed it today.

Afterwards, I apologized as well, but in the end I should not have partaken in these childish ways. It is still a learning process. My inner instincts told me not to do it but I said screw it, I will not let this person make me feel this way anymore...

In the end it washed up in apologizes. It could have been prevented and there would have been no regrets. So, today I am going to need to ask My Lord, Jesus Christ, to guide me away from these types of actions. It takes practice and self control, but at the end of the day we innately know if we have done the right thing. Today I did not, however I can ask for forgiveness from that person and God and start my day anew.

How are you handling situations in your life that you be practicing Humility better. Start applying this into your life and your life will make dramatic changes on your relationships and how you handle them. Take a step back...and look and examine at what you are doing to the relationship.

Humility -
the absence of any feeling of being better than others. i.e. displaying genuine humility, the peace activist accepted the Nobel Prize on behalf of all who have worked to the end the violence