Saturday, March 20, 2010

Releasing

Let fears slip away. Release any negative, limiting, or self-defeating beliefs buried in your subconscious too. These beliefs may be about life, love, or yourself. Beliefs create reality.

Let go. From as deep within as your fears, resentments, and negative beliefs are stored, let them all go. Let the belief or feeling surface. Accept it; surrender to it. Feel the discomfort or unrest. Then let it go. Let new beliefs replace the old. Let peace and joy and love replace fear.

Give yourself and your body permission to let go of fears, resentments, and negative beliefs. Release that which is no longer useful. Trust that you are being healed and prepared for receiving what is good.

Today, God, help me become willing to let go of old beliefs and feelings that may be hurting me. Gently take them from me and replace them with new beliefs and feelings. I do deserve the best life and love has to offer. Help me believe that.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie


Treatment, physical touch, words from an others mouth can create and mold what type of person you are or will become. My parents taught me love, forgiveness, nurtured me and set examples for me to imitate. They were always courteous of each other, never a foul word to hurt the other and shared a spiritual path of learning God's love.

I was in a very dysfunctional/toxic marriage that did not have any of these attributes. As time slipped by, slowly I did not love myself . The treatment and abuse taught me to have negative feelings about myself and have self-defeating behaviors.

I would abuse my body with the alcohol and drugs and this would shield myself from the reality that I was in...an abusive marriage. I remember I would look at myself in the mirror and tell myself how much I hated myself, how bad of a person I was, what a piece of shit I was. The words and actions of my ex were slowly being stored and branded into my brain and into my beliefs. It amazes me now to think that I once thought that of myself.

A therapist told me that everyday I needed to look in the mirror and tell myself that "I love you". She said even if I didn't mean it that I needed to say it everyday until I started to believe it. Practice became reality, though it took time.

I learned through therapy that my ex was displacing his unhappiness on me. I had to release/let go of why he treated me this way and why. I had to let go because I was not in control of him, I was in control of me, of my feelings, thoughts, actions.

Letting go of these negative beliefs and resentment has allowed me to be able to accept and receive the positives in my life today. I am not held by the chains of addiction anymore, I have released myself and feel free.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hi Colette, We knew each other a long time ago at Troy. I too have struggled with alcohol and addiction and thankfully have found the power within myself to accept my story and move forward with my life. I practice a therapy called ACT (Acceptance & Commitment Therapy). I'm excited now about what the future has to offer and am enjoying my life every day. Thank you for sharing your story.

Karen

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