We get sick because we believe on an unconscious level that illness is an appropriate or inevitable response to a situation or a circumstance. In some way, it seems to solve a problem for us, give us something we need, or is a desperate solution to an unresolved and unbearable inner conflict.
Rather than thinking of illness as disaster, we can think of it as a powerful and useful message. If we are suffering, it is a message that there is something to be looked at within our consciousness, something to be recognized, acknowledged, and healed. It may indicate that there is something about the way we are living that needs to be changed in order for us to be emotionally healthier.
Affirmation ~ I am now listening to what my body has to say. - Reflections in the Light, Shakti Gawain, September 28
Look at the word "illness". If I was a "normie", i.e. not an addict, I would not recognize this word for a character defect. I had a serious illness. I was not emotionally happy in my marriage because of the addiction/s and toxic relationship. I continued to stay in my "illness" because it was what I was comfortable with. I did not like being treated the way that I was, but it was comfortable. I knew I would have a roof over my head, that I would have a grand dinner to eat, a comfortable bed to sleep in, a shower to cleanse my body...
I couldn't understand how to "heal" or "to be healed" because I was still in active addiction, not facing what I needed to face. Once out of active addiction I realized that I needed to change many things about me, my life. People, places, things. The way I was living my life was making me emotionally unstable.
What a great feeling to not have this "illness" anymore. I ask God for healing everyday and thank Him for delivering me from addiction.
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