Living life right is tragically beautiful. Somewhat of an odd statement, an oxymoron of sorts. It's hard to define, maybe a mix of hardship that has brought you to a beautiful, peaceful place in life today.
Living life right has been tragically beautiful for me. My addiction has brought me close to death several times. Something I do not want to encounter ever again. During my active addiction I had hit rock bottom several times and did not care if I lived or died. You lose your inhibitions and what is in your world around you. I asked God to let me die. I could not live my life the way I was living it in addiction but did not know how to stop. In reality I had not hit rock bottom. I remember telling a friend of mine that I hate my addiction but love it, hating what the disease of addiction had done to me but loving the chemically induced part of it.
Addiction has brought me to the deepest darkest parts of my life and I am glad I have gone there because I know I never want to go back. Those of us that have faced addiction head on know the reality of it is that we face all white...jail, institutions or death. These are the places active addiction will inevitably lead a person to...without exception.
God Speed.
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